It’s March and the husband and I have been pondering a lot. The neighbors across the street just sold their town home, and according to our Realtor, now is the time to sell…
Which means we have to make some decisions pretty quickly, and it really hasn’t been easy. We’ve made lists of pros and cons and somehow they still manage to come out kind of even.
Sometimes I think it’s a matter of being afraid of the unknown… it’s so easy to stay where one is comfortable, and even if the situation isn’t perfect, you at least know what to expect for the most part.
I’ve never enjoyed making big decisions. They stress me out and I worry that I’ll make the wrong choice. It also doesn’t help that in this situation, as soon as we get close to deciding something will sway us back to the middle again and leave us second guessing what the right choice is. Like today… my 6 month review in my new position went well, so I get the second part of my raise. I can pretty much guarantee you it’ll take me another 5 years or more to make the same amount if I leave this job. However… it’s not really my ideal job, and I’m not as happy as I’d like to be, so is it worth the money?
It’s questions like this that make my brain want to shut down and not think about anything… procrastination for the win! I know we have to make a choice, though… whether it be to stay or go; or for me to stay at a job that pays well, but isn’t really fulfilling in any other way or to stay at home.
I admit, I’m not good with change and I worry about making huge leaps into the unknown. As for Josh… I think he’s leaning more towards staying, but me… I don’t know. I look at it from a logical standpoint and an emotional one, and I truly don’t know what the right choice is. I want what is best for our family, but I think I need to figure out what that really means. Is financial security more important or one of a handful of other things?
I think it’s Friday night and I’m going to think about it later. I know it’s silly to wait for a sign telling me what to do, but holy crap that would make it so much easier, wouldn’t it?
In the meantime… maybe I’ll go give the cat some attention. He’s been exceptionally needy lately, and I really haven’t been giving him much in the way of affection. Besides, cat purrs are known to reduce stress!