Our poor Mr. Enzo has not been feeling like himself as of late. He caught a nasty flu bug (I’ll spare you the details, but we were changing clothes and sheets several times a day it seemed from liquids leaving both ends). Just as we thought he was getting over the nasty tummy bug, he caught another cold, so we’re still not quite past the morning vomiting (from coughing irritating his gag reflex), but he seems to be relatively happy today.
We tried to keep things low-key this weekend, and cancelled some plans so we could give him our full attention and make sure he rested and attempt to give him enough fluids. He’s eating about 10 ounces less than usual, and has been losing about twice the amount of fluids as usual, so we’ve definitely been concerned about the little guy who continues to smile and tries to be his usual happy self.
As for other things… there seems to be a lot going on, and lots of changes, and I feel a need to change myself a bit. Having Enzo really made me think about things differently and has made me wonder what I’m doing with myself, and what my goals are now. It seems like they’ve gone from certain to very up in the air, and I find myself not really sure of who I am anymore. It’s not good or bad, it just is. I’m a mom now, and while knew it would be a new title for me, I didn’t realize how much it would start to define and change me, and that I’m okay with that. However, I’m not really sure where that leaves me… and feel like I need some new goals and purpose (Enzo has given me great purpose, but I can’t my entire purpose in life revolve around him… otherwise I’m going to feel lost when he no longer needs me to the same extent).
So for starters, I think I need a new blog title. I know, it isn’t really a big earthshattering change, but it’s a start. Then, I need to figure out what to do with myself so I don’t wander around the house aimlessly whenever Enzo is asleep. I have hobbies, but haven’t been doing anything with them lately and I feel like I need to DO something, whereas normally I would welcome any down time to read or catch up on shows.
So, there you go.